you gave me blood shot eyes.

things turned out pretty bad between me & somebody.
it sucks so much, i cannot believe i'm actually doing this to myself,
like some kinda fool thats ungrateful about her life.
i miss mon so much.
i miss the time we spent together.

i hate blogging about stupid things happening in my life & expect other people to show sympathy .
i'm not like that. i must be sorry for myself for not appreciating what i had.
& that was what i wrote in my journal.
"my fatal mistake was..."

how can i erase what i've said? but i don't think that somebody even give a shit about me.
not anymore. why? because of me! if somebody's gonna hate me now, i caused it.
fuck it. i just screwed my life.
i want a new life, somewhere that i can be on my own.
some place new for me.
somewhere that only people who truly loves me will know.