Hey blog, i realised that my english class is super quiet,

& i feel really uncomfortable in a quiet place where we are allowed to talk.

oh dear, school tmr, somehow i don't feel like going.
i just wanna escape chemistry, i love chem but i cannot face my horrible test paper tmr.
the only thing i can think of now is to get away from reality, just stay away from things that may make me sad.
i know that's like super not healthy, but i've changed. i'm super fragile now.
i've no long have self esteem i'm not confident in what i do anymore.

good luck to me
fingers crossed

MY dementor!

hey blog.

sorry for not updating you recently, i was too lazy/busy/caught up with Simple Life.
i've like watch season 1 to 5 like within 3 days, i think i only left with a few more episodes.
:D :D :D
anyway, today was a good day, firstly it's Friday(always good), secondly there wasn't math !
jumps
we watch Waterboys during english lesson
both chris & Julius are sick, julius' down with chicken pox! haha
i'm not being mean, but i had mine when i was like in Pri 2? like 8 years old! but anyways,
he's recovering like a bullet train. smiles
I miss J
(all his lame/funny/dumb/cold conversation with us)

I'm friends with Chris again,
(that somebody=Chris)

Ms Seng wrote a comment on my journal i wrote the other day;
"Well, we should all know that the opposite of hate is...love"

which is really true, many of my friends didn't believe me when i told like i had a crush on him last year. maybe that's why i started hating him.
(hafiz understands)

oh well, it's like far behind me now, i've got over it :]

so...Chris is sick at home, (not the pox) alan ang infected him with 'deadly' cool virus! haha
they shouldn't like drink from the same cup at the first place! laughs

me & sistax (jieying/J-ing) kept eating in class, like we've made a deal that each one of us will bring food on alternate days. & calvin chia kept calling me "ever-eating" the way he say that is so funny!!! oh well, we'll always share what we have :P

People who think I'm smart, think again.
i mixed up the general formula for Alcohol & Carboxylic Acid. i'm like like-oh-my-fuck-how-can-i-get-that-wrong?

very well.

racial harmony day photos











Rainy day

you gave me blood shot eyes.

things turned out pretty bad between me & somebody.
it sucks so much, i cannot believe i'm actually doing this to myself,
like some kinda fool thats ungrateful about her life.
i miss mon so much.
i miss the time we spent together.

i hate blogging about stupid things happening in my life & expect other people to show sympathy .
i'm not like that. i must be sorry for myself for not appreciating what i had.
& that was what i wrote in my journal.
"my fatal mistake was..."

how can i erase what i've said? but i don't think that somebody even give a shit about me.
not anymore. why? because of me! if somebody's gonna hate me now, i caused it.
fuck it. i just screwed my life.
i want a new life, somewhere that i can be on my own.
some place new for me.
somewhere that only people who truly loves me will know.

hey, did some changes to my blog. nice?
i think its very pretty, love the font a lot.
well, sorry for the previous post, but seriously i just feel that way & i can't change it.
i think i mean what i say this time. it's kinda hard to change my mind now.

oh well. im a weird person, thus i have strange feelings as well.
those who know what's happening in my life will know who i am talking about.
yup.

i wanna change.
i wanna be mature
&
Serious.

as what peiqi have mentioned to me the other day, i am indeed older than them,
so i should behave like one.
but i've always been a very chirpy & enthusiastic person, grr how am i gonna change?

anyway, i'll just try.
change behavior is very difficult y'know

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i love chemistry!
Chemistry makes the world go round
~grims~

for the past 2 days we had been doing practicals,
it's damn fun!
oh ya, & there's like a spider which was there yesterday, which scared the hell out of me.
IT'S STILL THERE TODAY!
at my bench


I'm going to Paris & London!
:D :D :D

BYE!

no picture

xinyu stepped on my toe with her heels

sistaXx

karol will always be karol :D

we had something in common that night. but never our sizes or looks, just look at my fat lumpy arm

he's taking over me!

i was so tall, i could take pic with her!

uber cute baby!

love her!